Entahlah...

Entry kali ni agak emo sikit seirirng dgn mood ku skang..
dgn mate bengkak2 dan berkace,ku gagahkan diri untuk menulis..
M feeling gloomy inside..x tau nak watpe lagi..
nangis laju2 dah..meraung kuat2 dah...

i have a dream..ku nak belajar sampai satu peringkat yg ku rase 'okeylah..cukupla..dah puas belajar'..
tapi kdg2,a dream is not to achieve..but to let go..
boleh jadi pasal certain reasons..and the main reason selalunye mesti pasal financial..huhu.
fer past few months i was too excited to continue my study..but now,entahlah..
maybe i was flying too high...ku terlalu mengharap dan bermimpi tentang 'perfect future'..
but when i fell down,rase sakit sangat..
to give up my dreams...to let them go...is something that really hurts me..

i wish...esok bangun tidur tetibe ade duit beribu2 bawah katil...
i wish..someone yang ku xkenal offered me a scholarship..
i wish..i wish..i wish...i was rich..so that i don't even have to bother about money..
i just don't have a single penny pun..

M feeling down...that's all i can say...
kalaulah ku ade abang or akak yg kerje besar,mesti dorg ley tanggung ku belajar..
rasenye,ku kene tanggung diri sendiri..
maybe i should let my dreams go..and start looking fer a job..
entahlah....